'Tis the Season

Okay, guys. Let's get real for a moment.

Being away from my family around the holidays is already sucking and Thanksgiving isn't even here yet. I will not be making it home for Thanksgiving, in fact. I'm okay with it in theory and I know it's better for my course-work and my bank account, but it still super sucks. I have plans for Thanksgiving, so it isn't going to be just me crying alone over some kind Thanksgiving Dinner for One recipe I find on foodnetwork.com or something. But still. Last year I didn't go home for Easter, which I am totally okay with, because as a person who really isn't religious or a child I don't get too geeked for it. I mean who talks about getting into the Easter spirit? But Thanksgiving through Christmas is my thing. You all thought I got crazy about Halloween, well multiply that by 10 for Christmas! I like everything from the corny Hallmark movies to the food to the snow (which is going to be severely lacking here) to the shopping to the decorations to the family time and coziness. I live for this! I'm all about tradition and now I have to start making my own...alone. Wah Waaahh.

So, I'm usually incredibly opposed to any kind of holiday activity until after Thanksgiving, but this year I needed to make myself feel about life in general really, so I went out and bought a Christmas tree and put it up already. Luckily the stores and television networks are totally feeling my need for this, because the decorations were in stores even before Halloween was over (now that's overkill) and this weekend I watched Fred Claus, Elf, and How the Grinch Stole Christmas. I've also created two Pandora stations of Christmas music and have been using it as a way to calm, focus, and give myself hope as I've been freaking out over my school work. Christmas will most certainly come, so this too shall pass and then I will be home!

I just want to be home. It isn't like me sobbing all of the time out of homesickness; I just keeping thinking about everything I want back home. And how much I want this semester to behind me. I dunno. It's all just a bit strange feeling right now.