Sad Face

So I've been back in Kentucky for like a week and I'm just missing home terribly. I just feel like going home for break really nailed the fact that it isn't the center of my universe anymore. I will always call it home, but at least until I'm done here, Michigan isn't my "base of operations" so to speak. Before home was the constant and I would go home for a weekend whenever I could/wanted. But that's not the deal anymore and, frankly, I don't like it. I know that I need to be able to move wherever I need to get a job, but I don't like that. I think I will be trying as hard as possible to get a job there. I just like being able to run home if I want. I like being able to have my mom cook me dinner if I've had a bad week. Now after a bad week I have a lame crying phone conversation with my mom, when, if I wasn't far away I probably wouldn't have been crying in the first place. I don't even know.

All of this always leads to some big question about whether or not this is really want I want to be doing and I mean I honestly don't know. I like to think it is, but I keep thinking about possible other fun lives doing other fun things...which could potentially take place in Michigan.

At one point I thought about going home for the summer. I'm not taking classes or anything. Sure, I would have to pay rent while I'm at home, but I would be spending less on other things were I there and maybe Biggby would want me back. Then I thought I would stay here, but once again, I'm thinking about going home. I just can't give it up as home. I don't want to live hundreds of miles away from the most important people in my life for the rest of my life. I want to be closer. By closer I mean like same state. It doesn't have to be like the same town or right up the road or anything like that.

Well now that I've sounded quite silly for a while I suppose I should go and see if that bacon is thawed out. I'm not sure what I'm making for dinner, but it's going to involve bacon :P